Swinburne
Hot New Meat
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I have found it very humiliating. The lack of control combined with the intensity of the climax and the real thorough job the machine I was milked with (Venus 3000) did left me somewhat shaken. I think for a person who works on a humiliation angle for domination it could be a pretty intense device.
In some ways the loss of any control was humiliating in and of itself...here the final element of control you have is taken and as the mistress I see said, at some point the intensity of the machine will make you climax and we will just keep turning it up until we get there. Once we did she put it on maximum until she was satisfied it was finished.
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TaraSterling
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Reged: Jun 11 2007
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Hmmm...
I believe that there could be a flow of emotions, from the tame of humility to an extreme of anger. In between I'm sure there would be shame, longing and anguish. I could see how the flow could move like a sine wave.
Thanks for sharing that. I would be very interested to hear how you sit with and get through the anger phases, how does your Mistress guide you through that difficult emotion?
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TaraSterling
Kinky Enthusiast
Reged: Jun 11 2007
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I have found it very humiliating. The lack of control combined with the intensity of the climax and the real thorough job the machine I was milked with (Venus 3000) did left me somewhat shaken. I think for a person who works on a humiliation angle for domination it could be a pretty intense device.
In some ways the loss of any control was humiliating in and of itself...here the final element of control you have is taken and as the mistress I see said, at some point the intensity of the machine will make you climax and we will just keep turning it up until we get there. Once we did she put it on maximum until she was satisfied it was finished.
Love that V2K 
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needtoserve
Cool New Kid
Reged: Nov 15 2007
Posts: 44
Loc: NYC
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Thanks for sharing that. I would be very interested to hear how you sit with and get through the anger phases, how does your Mistress guide you through that difficult emotion?
I seldom show anger and I let it go very quickly, so she probably wouldn't see it unless it was an extreme. Mistress Katya reads me very well and knows that I am very reluctant to ask for mercy. It's probable that she would change tempo if she saw anger coming and switch to a more seductive demeanor. Whenever we play she feels my thresholds. I've tried to analyze my reluctance to ask for mercy and the best that I can come up with is that I have a very strong desire to please.
In 20+ years of sessioning I believe that I've only outwardly shown anger once. That was when I was serving a sadist while not being maso. We had been through a phase when I could seemingly do nothing that pleased her and I was fantasizing alot about being caned to tears. We were doing what would be my most severe caning ever and we were moving past my threshold and tears were not the emotion of the day. With all of my recent efforts to please her failed and now I felt I was not going to sate the sadist's appetite I reacted with anger and frustration. Rather than call mercy I began trying to break out of the shackles, I felt some give in one of them and thrusted my arm violently three or four times. She never broke stride with the cane and on the sixth or seventh thrust I broke the shackle, then instantly went tranquil. It was a reaction that I would rather not see again.
Fortunately Mistress Katya reads and plays me well. She can be encouraging and nurturing or strict and sadistic. She seems to intuitively know when to flip the switch. Based on some previous experience I know that our upcoming chastity arrangement will be cause for some very strong emotions, she will not see the negative ones.
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She's always been so hard to figure out, yeah she always likes to leave me with a shadow of a doubt
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TaraSterling
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I have found it very humiliating. The lack of control combined with the intensity of the climax and the real thorough job the machine I was milked with (Venus 3000) did left me somewhat shaken. I think for a person who works on a humiliation angle for domination it could be a pretty intense device.
In some ways the loss of any control was humiliating in and of itself...here the final element of control you have is taken and as the mistress I see said, at some point the intensity of the machine will make you climax and we will just keep turning it up until we get there. Once we did she put it on maximum until she was satisfied it was finished.
After lots of exploration with the V2K I've decided that I need to find a way to make it hands-free.
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